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“So,” Dean begins, closing the car door with a little more care than needed. “'Administrative Leave', huh? Guess they can't have us running round showing anyone else up.”

Cas was giving him a smile, a small, soft one Dean had seen once or twice and committed to memory. “I forget that most people don't get told to 'cool off a while' after every case.”

“And thank fuck for that! There'd be no force if we were all getting paid holidays every time we did a good job. Seriously man, I'm gonna go stir-crazy before the two months is out. I'm already missing work now.” And wasn't that a sad pronouncement on the state of his life, if he had pretty much nothing outside of his work? “What do you do, Cas?”

 He gave a small shrug. “Work on some new security project, usually. Re-order my music collection by different parameters. Tidy my apartment, when things get really boring.”

“And god forbid that place doesn't have clutter on every surface.” Dean sighed. Really, he was grateful for the time off. Everything had been so messed up by the case, he knew it'd take him a while to really sit down and process it all. Re-evaluate his priorities, maybe. He tapped his fingers across the steering wheel, but made no effort to start the car. For the first time since this mess started, he didn't have anywhere to be. They didn't.

They.  Huh. Maybe he could start the whole re-evaluating business with them.

“Listen, Cas. I-” he what? The pause hung in the air long enough to make it uncomfortable for most, but Cas had never really got to grips with which silence were comfortable or not. Dean closed his mouth, resisting the urge to sigh again, and really thought about what it was he wanted to say.

 'I've had this really inappropriate crush on you since forever' didn't seem the way to breech this, and didn't cover the way his heart had stopped when Cas had fallen off the map, the effort it had taken not to just pull the trigger the minute Michael had been in his sights, the relief that had washed over him not when Cas had said it was over, but when he'd smiled and said 'Well done'.

 Cas strung him around, and lied to him more often than not; insulted him without meaning to; he had no concept of personal space, and he couldn't cook, and his idea of tidying was like blowing the settling dust off a bombsite, and when he got in a mood he ate and drank and smoked too much; he'd never seen Ghostbusters, for Christs sake! Cas hated cars, and he hated driving, and he hated Dean's favourite beer, and he made all Deans old favourite songs seem new again, and he was so damned earnest it broke Dean's heart a little, and he could quote any adaption of Sherlock Holmes back to front, and when he smiled or laughed it was like the dawn breaking after a long, dark night, and holy fuck.

“Listen,” he repeated, and can feel the flush in his cheeks, the wobble in his tone. “I liked working with you. Like, really liked. It was horrible, and you suck at teamwork, and this whole case was fucked from the start, but it's been the most fun I've had in years. And seriously, how are you single? I mean, look at you! And you're funny. And you know, your kissing is a little hokey, but hell, we could work on that.”

“Dean,” Cas says, with a face and tone somewhere smirking and confusion. “Are you propositioning me?”

Dean dragged a hand over his face, and couldn't contain the little shock of embarrassed laughter. “Man it'd be a hell of a lot easier if that was all I was doing.” He put a hand to his mouth momentarily, trying to work out how he was going to say this, but the moment he opened his mouth to say “Cas, I-” he was silenced by a finger on his lips.

 Who does that? Seriously, who does that?

Cas smiles, smaller and closer and softer than before, and removes the finger. “I watched the thing you told me about, with the man eating everything,” he says, and what the hell, that is the most inappropriate non-sequitur Dean has ever had the displeasure of being interrupted for. And he's had Sam bust in on him mid-coitus. Dean gapes at Cas, whose smile is unchanged. Was he being shot down before he even got that chance to say anything?

The silence stretches on, Dean feeling the flush that had painted his face draining to his shoes, Cas looking at him expectantly with a hand caught between rubbing his neck and staying resolutely on his knee. Oh. He was meant to respond. Dean hardly recognised his own voice at the choked-out “And?”

The hovering hand stands down, and Cas taps out a pattern on his knees. Dean thinks he recognises it. “There's a place in Maine that does good lobster rolls.”

All Dean can think is where the hell is he going with this? Something of this must show on his face, because Cas abruptly faces away, looking straight ahead like they're going somewhere. “I've never had a lobster roll,” he says placidly, and there is something of the 'definitely dropped on your head' in his tone, but his eyes are twinkling as he glances toward Dean. “Never been to the coast, either.”

And just in case it hadn't twigged already, “Driver picks the music?”

Dean puts his foot, and the handbrake, down with a little more force than he intended, and his baby jolts to life. “Damn right I'm picking the music if you're picking the destination. 'Sonly fair.”

Cas nods in agreement. “If nothing else, I have faith in your tastes.”

Dean wants to say something more. He wants to find it in himself to ask if there's a future in this, if Cas understands just what Dean wants to say, if this is a diversion or the first mile on some great emotional journey they're going to have together. He wants a solid stance on this. Instead, he pulls out of the carpark and aims for the highway. If they don't have everything they need for this trip already, they'll just have to pick it up along the way.

"Y'know, there's a chocolate moose in Maine, too," Dean says, glancing over. "In some ice cream shop. Think it's on the way?"

Cas leans over to jam a tape in the stereo, fastforwarding it unbidden. "If it wasn't before, it is now."

They haven't traveled a mile before they're singing what a long, lonely time it's been to each other.



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Nov. 7th, 2012 04:53 am (UTC)
This was insanely good. I loved this Cas. Loved him.

And I loved the setup with Dean not liking Cas at first and thinking all these negative thoughts about him and yet falling for him all the same. It tickled me that Dean could start a list of all the things wrong with Cas and have the list morph into how much Dean really cares about this person. Perfect!!

So impressed with the case and so sad with how messed up Cas' family was and what he went through as a kid.

Thank you so much for sharing this story. It was terrific!

Nov. 7th, 2012 04:20 pm (UTC)
thank you so much for reading a commenting! really makes a gal feel special :D i'm very glad you enjoyed it!
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Nov. 7th, 2012 04:32 pm (UTC)
i'm so glad you enjoyed it, i can't even tell you how happy such an insightful comment makes me :DDDDDDDDDDD
Nov. 7th, 2012 02:24 pm (UTC)
I enjoyed this a great deal. Engaging plot and brilliant characterisation; this was a real page turner! :)
Nov. 7th, 2012 04:21 pm (UTC)
thank you for saying so! i'm glad you liked it :D
Nov. 7th, 2012 04:54 pm (UTC)
I loved the contradictions of Cas and Dean here, Dean being the tidy person and messy cop while Cas is tidy cop and messy person. I liked the backstory you gave Castiel and how he was closer to Luke and Gabriel rather than Michael. Michael, I could see that court case being a doozer. He's obviously one seriously disturbed chap and would you throw him in jail or the asylum. I was half hoping Jo would shoot him, accidently of course. This was a very good crime story.
Nov. 7th, 2012 05:42 pm (UTC)
What a great story. I totally loved both Cas and Dean in this. :)
Nov. 8th, 2012 12:24 am (UTC)
GIRL THIS WAS AWESOME. Great characterisation, and brilliantly american too, something I always struggle with when writing. My writing is as British as Earl Grey flavoured crumpets.

Could really hear the dialogue in the characters voices, and the story was well paced and intelligent. I sometimes become slightly adrift in Law Enforcement AUs, but not so here.

Bravo! And I love how both characters changed but also stayed the same. Because why be with someone who's not the person you fell for, after all?
Nov. 8th, 2012 05:54 am (UTC)
Oh my god, this was amazingly brilliant!

First of all, the entire case was so intriguing to read about! I mean, the fact that you started this entire story with Cas going to Dean and sort of demanding his help on a case that was, for all intents and purposes, an open-and-shut case because he knew that something wasn't right. It was well thought-out and executed beautifully. Especially how you tied everything together.

Now Cas, oh my god. That man broke my heart so many times. It was so interesting to learn the little things about him and then find out at the end why he did things a certain way. Like, why he sleeps with the light on, why he is so paranoid, and why he doesn't really socialize with others very well.

And Dean, he was perfect. But then again, this whole fic was amazing! I really loved how you didn't have them go into a romantic relationship really because it wouldn't have fit either man. I like that this was mostly a friendship/discovering-their-feelings-for-each-other fic because it fit so much better with what you were writing about!

Just amazing! Wonderful, wonderful job!
Nov. 8th, 2012 07:00 am (UTC)
Everything about this was perfect! ♥
Nov. 8th, 2012 04:53 pm (UTC)
I love this story. A LOT. Cas' obsession with Sherlock Holmes fits perfectly (and may possibly become a form of personal head!canon), and the characterizations of all the SPN players were spot on. I also LOVE that you didn't let things descend into angsty-woobie!Cas territory. Many writers would be tempted to take the kidnapping history and turn it into one big h/c sidebar, but you valiantly resisted, and the story is much better for it.

I'll admit that the Britishisms threw me off a bit, as I am a Kansas girl - I kept sporadically hearing Dean and Cas speak in British accents as I read - but it'd didn't bother me enough to not love the story. *observes rambling sentence* (Please pretend I speak English on a daily basis. LOL)

Anywho, great addition to the DCBB and well-worth reccing to anyone who loves a good Destiel AU. ^_^
Nov. 8th, 2012 11:13 pm (UTC)
Good story. I like the way you made Micheal the bad guy & Lucifer the good guy, nice twist there. I like the reference to Diners, Drive-ins, & Dives too. I get hungry watch that show.
Nov. 10th, 2012 10:09 am (UTC)
I absolutely loved this, it's clear you have a lot of talent for plot and characterisation. I just wish you had a beta to polish some of the phrasing up a bit. But that's just a small niggle because, as I said, it was hugely enjoyable.
Nov. 12th, 2012 10:47 pm (UTC)
I was really looking forward to this as I love cop Cas and cop Dean... and you certainly didn't disappoint here. I love your story... so much so that it's really late now and I know I'll have to have an early start tomorrow, but I don't care.. Your Cas and your Dean are great and the plot is so very clever and well-thought-out... I really had a great time reading, so thanks a lot for writing and sharing this... You made my evening...
Nov. 16th, 2012 10:09 am (UTC)
This fic was so much fun. I absolutely adore your Cas. What a great character portrait you wrote and Dean was fabulously, awesomely Dean. The mystery was intriguing and I could picture all of Cas' glares and faces. One of my fave DCBB fics I've read. So much fun. Thank you for a terrific read.
Jan. 11th, 2013 01:33 am (UTC)
I've only just discovered Supernatural and I'm slowly working my way through years worth of bigbang fic. I have a weakness for cop AU's in any fandom so I'm pretty glad I found this! Your Cas voice is brilliant. Definitely my favorite fic so far.
Jan. 20th, 2013 06:39 am (UTC)
This is such a fantastic read. Not only was the case was so interesting and cleverly put together (seriously, casefic isn't usually my thing but this just nabbed my attention and wouldn't let go), and then it was framed really well by the evolution of Dean and Castiel's relationship.
Feb. 15th, 2013 04:16 am (UTC)
Wow. Just. WOW.

This reads like a real exciting TV show, it didn't feel like I'm reading it, the words and the actions flowed so smoothly that it felt like I was watching it. And oh, how I love this story, how Dean began by not liking Cas and that feeling gradually changing to respect then fondness and LOVE!

I hope season 2 is in the pipelines! :DD
Apr. 12th, 2014 03:31 pm (UTC)
This is one of the best stories I've read in the fandom. I had to take two breaks to do stuff while I was reading and I physically missed it during that time.

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